Cleaning up my closet… again!

This month seems to be all about cleaning up my closet again..
With summers here, (and my sister in town), it was time to pack up the winter clothes (or watch her doing it) and take out the summer wear!

…and evaluate what stays and what goes. This has to be my sister’s favorite thing to do.

I didn’t realize it would be so freeing to literally clean up my closet – okay, to be honest, I didn’t realize it would be so freeing to watch my sister clean up my closet!

I was amazed that just like the old books and notes, I’d kept clothes that dated back decades! (okay 7 years – buts that a lot too!). Not that I didn’t add any to my closet during that time.

My sister kept taking them out one by one, giving me the year we bought it in and looking at me questioningly – I guess she wanted me to tell her when was it that I last wore that piece of cloth. I knew I couldn’t get away with keeping my favorite clothes this time around.

I think my brain puts all dates, incidents and clothes in one section. Maybe thats why it’s difficult for me to let go of my clothes and stuff. I get this horrifying feeling that if I threw this t-shirt away, I’ll forget what had really happened – whether it was a good memory or a sad one, I don’t want to forget it. As if my whole life is folded in these clothes and stacked in my brain. So it took a lot of courage to let go of my old clothes. What gave me this courage (apart from a very very strong push from my sister) is the turn my life seems to have taken this year.

It’s like my life is turning over a new leaf. I have felt so dazed in this first quarter of the year that I have had to sometimes sit and pinch myself to find out if I am dreaming. I re-lived every single day of the last 6 years in these last 6 months. And this time, it was the last time. No more clothes to remind me of what happened, no more staring at the t-shirt and thinking why it happened and no more hoping that the same times will come back if I keep it with me.

I now have an almost empty cupboard – one that needs to be filled with all new clothes!